hi friends.

thanks to all for wishing me a happy birthday - i had a very happy one.

:)


i didn't appreciate some of the comments and no e-props left on his xanga, however.

believe it or not, i don't enjoy contributing to this "act of civil disobedience" or being a "small group wrecker" in any way. >:O (only sometimes)

and from now on, refrain from making such hasty comments out of bitterness towards him or me (more him) cuz every one of you know that all you are is jealous and when you "obtain a yuj," you will do that and more. (TRUST ME - especially you kane)

unless you don't plan on ever getting married, it may do you good to keep silent. cuz i can and will hunt you down.

(but thanks to those who back me up on the biting thing - it is very painful.)

g'day. :D

i really wish i didn't have to work right now.

what i'd rather be doing:

1. napping on my bed with my pink raggedy, i mean, thin blanket and white bear in my arms and mimi next to me
2. watching a cute romantic-comedy with him and eating kettle corn
3. sipping daiquiry under the hot sun on a private beach and feeling the cool breeze
4. listening to the rain in a car stopped on leaf-covered roadway
5. shopping at towson town center while drinking starbucks and getting nice things on sale
6. sharing this cheesecake with him
7. picnicking in a park - eating food out of a basket while reading a good book on a blanket laid on the grass
8. prettying up and going out for a fun night with the girls
9. nothing


instead, i'm:

1. surrounded by piles of paper and files in a corner cubicle
2. trying to keep my stress level under control despite the growing to-do list
3. eating cheesecake alone
4. looking out the window to a sunny day
5. struggling to keep my eyes open
6. blogging as an excuse to break from work
7. extremely cold because they crank up the a/c everyday but i never remember to bring a sweater or jacket


the only things keeping me from screaming right now:

1. him
2. this white chocolate raspberry truffle cheesecake
3. the thought of reuniting with my bed, bear, and mimi when i get home
4. the fact that tomorrow is friday and i don't have to be at work all day because i'm going to court for a speeding ticket

i got an invitation to a wedding in india!

i wish i could goooooo.

there's more to this world than me and my little self.

when will i grow up?

will i ever look beyond what i see here and now...

and stop kicking and crying to get what i want?

ever??




Lord, You are all i want.
You alone can satisfy my every need.