Friday, January 31, 2003

i've been having really bad nightmares lately. sorry to those who have died in my dream in the past week (i'm sure you don't feel so comfortable when someone says "you died in my dream last night") anyway, i don't know why... trust me, it's not because i have hard feelings or anything (really). i've had a dream every night and i think probably three out of all the dreams i've had in the past week were nightmares. very real ones... the kind where you wake up in the morning and have to tell yourself it was just a dream. it's pretty scary actually. how much worse can it get than waking up feeling like one of your friends (or family... or you) died the previous night...

wish me success tonight...!

okay jungeun... time to think happy thoughts... :)

Wednesday, January 29, 2003

Villa Julie College
Evening Classes Canceled
Submitted at: 4:32 PM EST on Wednesday, Jan 29

YEAH BABY.
Detailed Forecast for Baltimore County

Winter weather advisory through this afternoon.
Temperatures are expected to remain near freezing in most locations. Precipitation, while spotty this morning, is expected to increase in coverage this afternoon. Light freezing rain or drizzle is expected this afternoon possibly mixed with sleet and snow at times before ending late. While little snow accumulation is expected light freezing rain or drizzle could cause slippery spots on roadways and overpasses.

and why hasn't villa julie announced its closing yet? ;)

Monday, January 27, 2003

poor c.l. tried to leave a comment on my entry on abortion but was unsuccessful probably because his comment was so long. so i just wanted to post some of what he expressed to me over our aim conversation that should've been submitted as a comment.

radaconda: i mean, all that you said is true, but still, some christians accept certain types of abortion while others do not, and it all comes down to how one defines life
radaconda: well, some may say life is preordained, and any contraception is abortion
radaconda: some say life is initiated at the point where sperm and egg meet, and any drug taken following that is abortion
radaconda: and some say that life begins beyond the second or third trimester, and any procedure done at that point is abortion
radaconda: and finally, some say that life is marked by consciousness or sentience, which first occurs some time in the fetus, and destroying that is abortion
radaconda: also, some say that animals have sentience (self-recognition), and that spoken and written language determines human-ness
radaconda: but that would seem unacceptable, as it would eliminate a number of people who have language disorders
radaconda: (they're still human, after all)
radaconda: or are they?

this calls for a second entry on abortion. be sure to stay tuned...


Sunday, January 26, 2003

don't you love this feeling you get after buying new supplies and books to start the school year?

okay okay... i'm a big nerd.

Saturday, January 25, 2003

it's so heartwarming to see an expecting mother excitedly anticipating the birth of her child. the kicks here and there bring joyful reminders that she is carrying a life inside of her. once the child is finally born, it is the object of much love and affection by most everyone and anyone, from the father to random strangers in the streets.

this morning, i heard a very powerful message on the radio about abortion that moved me to write about it. though i have always been pro-life, the speaker's strong, well-thought-out arguments caused me to think a bit deeper. pro-choice vs. pro-life... is undoubtedly a very controversial issue. and because of our society's growing acceptance of premarital sex and number of rape cases and what not, which can result in more unwanted pregnancies, authorities are placed under more pressure than ever to come up with an agreeable answer to this endless controversy. the problem, however, is that the views are almost equally divided. why is it that more and more people are becoming so accepting of this "right"?

before we answer this question, let's take a look at the big picture. i, as a human being, am given the choice to murder anybody who gets in my way of things. but we aIl well know that this choice doesn't give me the right. i don't even believe that pro-choice is the correct terminology... isn't pro-choice more like pro-murder? if we can say give the mothers the right to kill their own babies, how can we tell others that murder is immoral?

needless to say, it's obvious that those who support abortion don't believe that fetuses are human. therefore, they are not granted human rights. the speaker i heard today laid out four differences in a fetus and a born individual in order to prove their moral irrelevance in determining the "unhumanness" of fetuses. these differences included size, development, environment, and degree of dependency. his arguments were presented in such a strong manner that i cannot do justice by writing a blog after hearing it only once while driving. but here goes my best shot.

1. size: many people believe that because fetuses are so tiny, they cannot be considered human. if you are one of these people, listen to this. is hillary clinton less of a human being than shaquille o'neal because she is smaller in size than him? (hmmm... i guess that was a bad example... hehe) but the point here is that size is an irrelevant factor.

2. development: this is a popular argument. because fetuses' parts and organs aren't even fully developed, they are not human. if you really think about it, a four-year-old girl's uterus is not fully developed until she is in her teens. does this make her less of a human being to you? i hope not.

3. environment: the difference of environment... a fetus lives inside the mother's womb until birth and then is exposed to the environment we live in. some may argue that the baby must come out in order to be human. but if you think about it, how does 8 inches of birth canal make such a huge difference?

4. degree of dependency: a fetus is completely dependent on the mother. without her and the nutrients that she provides, the young one cannot exist. this may sound like a viable argument, but consider those with certain diseases that require similar dependency on either medicine or machine. just because their lives cannot exist without outside help, again this does not make them less of a human than others who are healthy.

with all that said, if there's one true difference, it is that fetuses are absolutely defenseless. but i do not believe that this allows us adults to take advantage of them and deprive them of their rights. let it be that we take the stand to act as defenders of the precious lives that God has entrusted us with. i pray that everyone who happens to read this will choose life.

"The so-called right to abortion has pitted mothers against their children and women against men. It has sown violence and discord at the heart of the most intimate human relationships. It has aggravated the derogation of the father's role in an increasingly fatherless society. It has portrayed the greatest of gifts -- a child -- as a competitor, an intrusion, and an inconvenience. It has nominally accorded mothers unfettered dominion over the independent lives of their physically dependent sons and daughters... Human rights are not a privilege conferred by government. They are every human being's entitlement by virtue of his humanity. The right to life does not depend, and must not be declared to be contingent, on the pleasure of anyone else... " -Mother Theresa

"It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish."
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BILL!!!

Friday, January 24, 2003

i'm having a good hair day today. :o)

Thursday, January 23, 2003

when i was little, i could sleep under any circumstance even if i was only semi-tired. and at times when i slept next to my mom, i wondered why she would always get irritated if i leave the light on or shake the bed when i change sides. it was natural for me to try to be motionless and noiseless when i slept on her bed. but as a kid, i never knew why... because for me, light or no light, noise or no noise, shake or no shake, it didn't make any difference to my falling asleep... not that i never suffered from insomnia as a child. actually, i remember many nights of staring at the wall in the dark for hours and wishing i would fall asleep. but y'see, it was never because something in particular was keeping me from sleeping.

the reason why i say all this is because last night, i got in bed at midnight extremely sleepy but didn't fall asleep until 3 in the morning. why, you may ask. hmm... let's just say that my sister needed to study. :-/ but it's just funny how now that i'm 20 years old, light, noise, and movement all suddenly have such a huge influence on my slumber. perhaps this is just a sign of aging?

anywho, i feel so out of it...

Wednesday, January 22, 2003

i imagined myself in the water... drowning and struggling to live... to go towards the rock that seemed so far away. 'Jesus is my Rock,' i say to myself.

this is when i can do nothing but place my hope in the God who has never let me go. just when i realize that i have no strength of my own to depend on and the rush of water through my nose and mouth seems too much for me to endure, God provides a log on which i can rest and restore enough oxygen to swim on towards my goal.

i am struck by how immaterial my life is compared to the rest of the world. in fact, i am only one among the billions of people on earth. but i have given this life to God; i am not my own, but i am God's. and i am in complete awe of my loving God who tells me that i make the world of a difference to Him.
HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DAD!!!!

Tuesday, January 21, 2003

why are books so expensive? i would've spent a total of $490 if my sister didn't already have some of the books i need this semester. after opting to pick out used books (at least those that were available), i paid a total of $185! phew...

i am taking a british lit course this semester, and these are the books we will be reading:

Hard Times by Charles Dickens
Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
Oroonoko and Other Writings by Aphra Behn
Gulliver's Travels by Jonathan Swift
Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe

buying books got me all pumped. i'm ready for school!
note to angela: feel better... i'll be praying for you.

note to someone: you look cute drenched in sweat in your hanbok... :P i'll show you pictures the next time i see you. good luck on your test!

many things to pray about tonight... better go...


Peace and Joy

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance; character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.



Monday, January 20, 2003

Better Than I

I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answer
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here
So I put up a fight
And told You how to help me
And just when I had given up
The truth is coming clear, for...

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
'Cause You know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing, I don't know
Is part of getting through
I try to do what's best
Find faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my faith in You, for...

I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught them how to fly
If I let you reach me
Will You teach me? For...

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
I'll take what answers you supply
'Cause You know better than I

Sunday, January 19, 2003

oh yeah, i hope your special praise went well today... i prayed for you. :)
if any of you are curious, the chicken turned out better than i expected (though we took it in and out of the oven about 50 million times before we decided it was ready to serve). we also had pasta with clam sauce. yum~ princess maki was definitely pleased with our cooking. thanks for delicious dinner and a fun evening, young adults of hope chapel!

oh and by the way, lasertagging was so much fun! can you believe that my legs are still sore after two days?? i need to exercise more often. anyway, i was a little disappointed at how i did the first game... i ranked 16th out of 24 (i still blame it on those american guys who hit me 19 times... they were intense... hehe). But if you'll allow me to brag a little, i ranked 9th on the second game!! thanks to mastersplinter and "mago" for my points.

ok, time for bed. hmm... i wonder if there is any snow in the forecast for tomorrow... (sigh) ;)

deluxe sour cream chicken.... sound good? i can't wait to see how it will turn out. considering three guys and i will be cooking it, i would not jump to be the first to try it. i'm anticipating quite a cooking adventure.

by the way, my headache is finally gone... though my eye has started twitching like crazy.

Friday, January 17, 2003

i have a migraine headache that won't go away... and has bothered me for the last three friggin' days!!

HELP
thanks to all who prayed with me. it was a snowy morning.... just not snowy enough. so here i am at work... working away. actually, i'm eating popcorn and writing my blog. how can i complain, eh?

tonight, our church is going lasertagging, and i am quite excited! i think the last time i went was 2 years ago around this time. i remember it being so much fun... first of all, y'know how you choose the name you want to be shown on the results? well, somebody (won't mention any names but you know who you are) took my paper and wrong 'ddong' on it (he happened to think it was a cute nickname). just imagine working yourself through the crowd and taking your result sheet after the guy at the front stumbles over 'ddong' in front of like fifty koreans.

dong?
dung?
ddung?

nonetheless, it was a blast. i remember i had no idea how to play on the first round. i just kept shooting anyone i saw and screamed everytime someone shot me. but i have to say, i was very impressed at my improvement on the second round after i had a good understanding of the game. i am ready to show off my skills this time! ;)

Thursday, January 16, 2003

Hello everyone!! I probably have zero readers of my blog right now, but let's just hope that when I start to publicize it, more people will keep coming in! If you're here for the first time, feel free to look around and make yourself at home. I'll be sure to post many many fun entries for you all! I didn't know how hard it would be to learn html, but I'm doing my best. If any of you can give me any helpful advice on html, it will be greatly appreciated! ;)

Well, I'm off to bed... Please pray with me that I can wake up to a snowy morning. I would love to have a day off from work.